The youngest out of ten children, I grew up in Baltimore City, MD. I didn’t really have a relationship with my parents, so being with my three older brothers was the only love I would feel for a very long time. At the age of seven I can remember that love being taken from me when my parents decided to separate us and gave me to an older sister to be raised. Two months after being with her, my father died of a massive heart attack. Then three years later my mother also passed. It’s sad to say but, the only loss I remember was the loss of not being with my brothers. I began lashing out at an early age. Feeling abandoned and unloved, my anger started to evolve very quickly. By the age of 16, I fathered my first son. By 18, I fathered my second son with the same girl.
At age 21, because of my long time drug addiction, I did the same things my parents did to me and gave my children up. I told myself it is for the best. For the next 30 years, I put my heart in the hands of others, just to get hurt again and again. Those were dark days. Once while seeking drugs I was robbed and shot in the back and almost crippled. My life has been rough. I have spent over 16 years behind bars all total. All because I hated who I was and what I stood for. It was while I was in jail that I accepted Jesus Christ. I even read the whole Bible, but that’s as far as it went. After being released I continued to run. To run away from who I was and the inner pain and torment that followed me. My running wasn’t over until February 5th of this year. It was then that I arrived at the Westminster Rescue Mission hoping for a new beginning. Little did I know that I would find that and much more. While here I’ve come to understand that Jesus is the only one who can save my soul and fill the holes and brokenness of my heart and life. At the Westminster Rescue Mission, my day consists of morning devotions and afternoon and evening chapel, which I feel is God’s gift to me. I currently do my job/work training at the Thrift store. I also willingly volunteer my services at anytime. The balance that is here is exactly what I need. Being here I’ve gotten to understand what joy feels like and means. I have now chosen to carry that joy everyday instead of all the hurt and pain. I realize it is not about me, it is what God can do through me for others. I was baptized on June 9th . I believe this was outward sign to an inward change that is only possible through my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. Today I know God and I know hope!